There is no greater act of courage than being the one who kisses first
“To me, there is no greater act of courage than being the one who kisses first.”
–Janeane Garofalo
Life is a constantly changing scenario where you never have all the answers, even when you might think that you do. Life’s most recent curve ball spins with an interesting dynamic. It breaks down into a couple parts. One such piece is how others perceive you. I’ve been losing a lot of weight recently. It’s interesting doing this the way that I am. I’m doing it slowly so those close to me haven’t really said much about it. I’m at the point where those that see me infrequently notice that something is different but aren’t sure enough to say anything. When I mention it, they instantly recognize the difference. That sort of thing is motivating me to push it beyond this point.
Pieces of this process renews my sense of importance. It’s in no way related, but I feel like it’s making people notice me again. Things have been picking up at work recently. Not only do my project seem to be going well, but I’m also picking up important projects from elsewhere. There’s talk of moving me up in the ranks as both a technical coordinator and maybe even a team leader. Both areas are new and interesting to me so I’m very curious to see how this plays out.
And now for the title quote… I met someone new last month. Like always, I’m taking things slowly. Not because I’m scared, like normal, but because I’m unsure. Overall, life is going so well right now. Introducing a change on that magnitude right now is just asking for chaos. But maybe chaos is exactly what I need right now. But even that doesn’t seem to be the whole story. I keep asking myself what it is that I really want. Could this new connection be that thing? I suppose only time will tell. For now I’m enjoying the journey and am waiting to see where the path leads me.